Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Letting Go

Sweetie Pie has been getting more and more excited about going to kindergarten in the fall. I'm her Mama, and I'm excited for her, but I'm also stocking up on clearance tissues for the first 3 months. I started crying even telling her what she was going to do at kindergarten, and I'm tearing up now telling you what I was telling her about kindergarten. She's VERY independent and won't have a single problem with spending 5 days a week away from home, but I'm going to miss her like crazy.

This is what I was waiting for ALL those mornings when she was colicky and screaming all night long. I'd get though those tough times with the help of Tylenol (for me), some cookies, and the promise that it was only 5 more years until kindergarten. When she hit her terrible twos (and threes) I bleached and vacuumed up after her while whispering "three more years, three more years" to myself like the crazy lady that I am. When she started lying, and taking my things and hiding them I reminded myself that I only had one more year to be the only person showing her the way in life.

What you see:

What I see:

Today when we had our talk about kindergarten my little angel had to wipe the tears from my cheeks and remind me that she will indeed be coming home everyday after school. She's just so little... too little to ride a bus and get herself ready for recess. Too little to be alone with the meanie 5th graders on the playground and to find her own classroom. She's just too little.

And now it's hit me like a ton of bricks. My baby isn't a baby anymore, and almost a third of her life as a child is over... and now I'm crying. And she thinks I'm nuts. Where's the tylenol and cookies!?

6 Thoughts From Others:

Tina said...

You have a beauty on your will be slapping all the boys away, better get a BIG stick! LOL

Enjoy every minute because they grow up so fast and you blink your eyes and they are getting married...sorry you probably didn't need to hear that!!!

Miriah said...

What a cute chubby baby picture! I love it!

It hasn't hit me yet that my big boy is going to kindergarten, but it's starting to now that I am realizing it's ONLY a month away. Maybe we should have crying fest together! ((HUGS))

Jess said...

add me to the crying fest. I've got three that are off to kindergarten in a month. I'm excited but sad at the same time.

Mrs. Wright said...

I thought that when you said it the other day Jess... and count me in for a crying fest!!

Anonymous said...

If it makes you feel any better (which I it won't I know) I started crying just walking my daughter past the school where she will start kindergarten - in three years!

Fishbacks said...

It doesn't get any easier. Logan is my 3rd child that I am sending off. I cry every time we talk about it. The older kids and Jeff just laugh at me and don't understand. I understand what you are feeling. PS you can volunteer in the classroom!;)

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